Okay so after taking mandy at the weekend, today was "Bluesday Tuesday" a term Wolfie used to describe the emotional comedown you get 2 days after having MDMA before you manage to replenish your serotonin levels.
It wasn't that bad. Went to college listening to Leonard Cohen and Hole...Cohen soothed me actually, but Hole mad me sad. I read alot today too. And I even wrote on the bus, though it sounded kinda crazy when I read it back to myself, I'll post it on here when I get chance, probably. Muddled.
I have been horrible tonight though, thoroughly bratty (can I be bratty anymore, now I'm not his like that?) and bad tempered and grouchy and aggressive. Though he got me in my place in a way I felt and loved heh.
Got a very interesting couple of weekends coming up too, an alone weekend this time round, which is something we've not had for ages and ages, then the one after, well, I got me skank ("a friend") coming, which should be fun, in ways I can't or won't go into on here for now *grins*. I used to feel different about this, the first time...now I've changed and I'm more enlightened into myself these days, than before....and I see things differently. And I feel different. And also on a seperate note I'm a lot more confident in my abilities nowadays, though if anyone is reading this it will just sound a big ball of jumbly crap to them lol, but it gets stuff off my head onto paper, and I need somewhere to express myself more so that's okay. Cryptic.
So yeah Bluesday Tuesday....you didn't bluesday me so have it :p
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