Oh, the feeling...it's all about the feeling, baby

It really is. I've changed. And so has mine and Wolfie's world. There is no way to describe it, but...it's different now, more fluid, interchangeable. And I feel different. More power, more magic, more feeling and more understanding. Like I said earlier, my brain seems like a time bomb, and when it goes off I don't know what will happen, but it'll be a ride, that's for sure. I've never been educated, or smart, or quick witted, yet, I'm growing. And I feel like I'm feeding my mind and my head and it feels good.

Speaking of feeling good; I had MDMA for the first time in over a year at the weekend. FUCKING HELL it was good. The night before, I resisted drugs at all-I said I wanted to and it was hard, as Wolfie did them and so did my mate, it was so hard saying no to the drugs then and being the only one not doing them, but if I had of not been able to say no to them, then I should have no business doing them at all. But go me coz I resisted. But the MDMA was amazing, it made me remember what it was like to feel on that stuff...and oh, I felt so much.

And I'm feeling so much, alot lately. My feelings and thoughts are coming together, it feels like something is building in there, not something crazy like a couple years ago, but something strong and powerful and freeing. And it's not where I end up that I'm looking forwards to, it's the ride; it's all about the ride, baby.